Grasping

I should have taken advantage of what I had
when I had it
because I don't anymore.
Why didn't I ask for one more hug?
Why didn't I go ahead and call and try to chat on the phone?
I want these things now
but all I have are the memories.
Why didn't I take the front seat without being forced to do so?
Why didn't I sit by you more in general?
I missed out.
And now I can't get it back.

Enjoying the Bi-polar-ness

So yesterday was one of the most amazing days ever. I was in a perpetual good mood, I beleive. It started with that test I was studying for Sunday evening. The test went horrible. I wish I were kidding, but it will not be a pleasant grade. When I walked out, I almost began getting upset and rehashing it all, but then I thought, "why? What's the point of that? It's over. It's over." So then I changed my mindset. I came back to my room, and I showered, cleaned the room up, and put up happy Thanksgiving decorations. :~) It was relaxing. Then I went to eat with my roommate. It was there that I began to put an idea into action of borrowing DDR from friends to take home to play over break. That made me really excited. So then, I decided to skip my next class. The class is really frustrating and boring, so I decided not to put myself in a situation where I get so cynical. I turned in a paper, and then walked out (the teacher never noticed.) As soon as I hit the door, I took off running. I ran and laughed all the way back to my dorm. When I got here, I didn't feel like doing my work, so I turned on some dance songs from a Performing Arts Camp I help with in the summer, and danced around my room. THEN, a friend who contacted me about finishing taking pictures of me for a digital photography class. We went to a playground, and I played. I was just so happy. I played on monkey bars, a few slides, and swung! Then, we climbed a tree. That's right, we. I convinced him he needed to climb, too. Then, I went to a class, which flew by, and I came back to the room. THEN a friend called me and asked if I wanted to play DDR with them. So I did. It was only for about an hour, but it's DDR, so it's always good times. And yesterday was the Thanksgiving meal in the DC, so the food wasn't even gross for dinner! The majority of the rest of the night was spent playing mafia with a bunch of friends. It was a really good time.
So, in summary, yesterday was a fabulous day. I loved it, and I was in the best mood I think I could have been in. At one point, I even yelled aloud, "I love laughter!" And then laughed some more. :~) Yep. That was my day!