Changes To Be Had

So the past 2 weekends, I've been at a Christian Performing Arts Camp (hereafter referred to as PAC camp). This is the place that, when I was a camper, I first encountered God and the whole idea of a Christian lifestyle. I always love going back to be a counselor, but this year was different and great.
For a while now, things have been off. I wasn't entirely sure what was up, but I knew something was wrong. I had been going to church, reading my Bible, attempting to pray, but still something didn't seem right. My prayers sounded hollow, and I almost hated asking for anything because it felt weird to ask something from someone I didn't talk to much. But still, I didn't really think anything was wrong. Then I went to PAC camp. I am not sure even what did it, but I was reminded of something I already knew. I had forgotten the whole relationship with God part of things. I realized that in an attempt to have in my view of God stuff only "real" things, shunning away anything that seemed corny or cheesey, I cut out the whole relationship. I don't know why I didn't notice it with the whole prayer part, but whatever. My faith had become more of a mechanical operation than something I wanted. But now, things are different. Still not how they should be, but I suppose they never will be. Now, my job is to find the way to redefine my faith; to find that balance between "real" and "corny". And I'm excited to do so. God suddenly seems real again. And I love it.