Another one I hope doesn't make much sense. Just needed to get it out. . .

I'm a little worried. Usually, I fall two weeks after him. What if I have to deal with that next? I can't imagine. Even though I feel so far along, that would hurt. I wish he didn't have to hurt so much. I wish there was something I could do to ease the acceptance. I wish I had been available when he needed it. It hit him as depression. "God, I don't want to go through that (again?) Again, God, I just ask for comfort. Help him feel Your hug." I don't know what else I can say. There's nothing, really, I can do. I really hope I can be a good friend. And I really hope I don't follow. . .