To no one.

I'm falling again. But I'm so afriad to do so. I trust so easily in most circumstances. But now, it's different. Not only could I be (and probably am) wrong, but what if I'm right? Is it wrong to allow that possibility into my head? I don't even know. I feel like I'm falling, being pulled into it, but I can't tell if it's on purpose. I'm trying to claw my way back up; or at the very least, hold where I am at. But in the same breath, I relish the idea of falling. Oh, to trust again.

I kind of hope this is vague. Not only do I not know if it's harmful to think about it, I don't want others to know. I think I need sleep.